A Reason

Just a little something I wrote last night in literally fifteen minutes.  It’s funny, because it’s a totally honest song and I mean every word, but where it started and where it ended are two dramatically different places.  Like, it almost ends up being about the opposite of what it started about.  Which is weird if not for the fact both things are totally sincere.  Sometimes I write pretty stream of consciousness and that’s how this one went.  It’s kind of a cross between a country rock number and a swedish mid-tempo pop anthem..

Anyways, enjoy..

(song after the jump..)

A Reason

every morning i count my blessings
i carve all those words into my skin
cause everybody’s got their scars
at least i choose the words i’m burning in

i swear i’m gonna make my mark
that’s why i say my prayers still every day
this whole damn world almost breaks my heart
which is why i need the help remembering

you gotta find a reason, you gotta find a reason to get up, get up
you gotta find a reason, you gotta find a reason to wake up, wake up, wake up

you gotta find a reason to live
and a reason to breathe
gotta find someone to take care of me
cause it’s so easy to close your eyes and wanna die but baby that’s not life
you gotta find a reason
you gotta find a reason

sometimes i think it is my momma
sometimes i think it’s nobody at all
cause it’s been so long since i let anyone
anyone in my heart

it’s gonna be a lonely place
it’s gonna be a lonely night
if you don’t let no one

you gotta find a reason to live
and a reason to breathe
gotta find someone to be there for me
cause there is no shame in lying broken crying and letting someone see
you gotta find a reason
you gotta find a reason

cause i
have been on my own
for oh so long
and i been fine at getting on

and i have become so self sufficient, it’s been my mission, to not need anyone
so when’s it getting self-defeating, i keep repeating, the mistakes my parents made
my mother made
my father made
the ones i swore
i’d never make

you gotta find a reason to live
and a reason to breathe
gotta find someone to take care of me
cause it’s so easy to close your eyes and wanna die but baby that’s not life
you gotta find a reason to live
and a reason to breathe
gotta find someone to be there for me
cause there is no shame in lying broken crying and letting someone see
you gotta find a reason
you gotta find a reason

cause i
have been on my own
for oh so long
and i been fine at getting on
but it’s time
for me to find
to find a reason