For Dean Who Never Called

(Originally posted here on 5th December 2010)

An old song I wrote years ago that I’ve had stuck in my head lately.  Unfortunately, have lost the audio files of the music, so if anyone is a good guitar player (I’m rubbish), feel free to give me a shout..  I always find it funny how I’ll write a song about one thing, but it will often prove to be more relevant to my life at some other point down the track..

‘for dean who never called’

you scare me with how much you could hurt me
you thrill me with how much you make me sing
about everything
you scare me with how much you make me smile
just at the thought that you might call
if you call at all

my hearts in my throat
i’m starting to choke
my hearts in my mouth
i might spit it out
just to get it out

and i don’t wanna let on
exactly what’s going on
exactly what’s going on
with me inside
can’t no longer hide it

and i don’t want the first time to be the last time
to be the last time
now that i found you, so
and it just occurred to me in this blur that you made of me
this blur that you made of me
that i might love you so
one day

you thrill me with how much you make me change
you scare me with how much i rearrange
my life for you

you thrill me with how much you make me see
you scare me with just how damned good it could be
to be with you

my hearts in your hands
you don’t understand
my heart doesn’t know
cause you wont say so
but just don’t let go

and i just wanna let it out
tell you what its all about
really just scream and shout
of how i love you
oh i love you

and i don’t want the first time
to be the last time
to be the last time
now that i found you so
and it just occurred to me
in this blur that you made of me
this blur that you made of me
that i might love you, so..
one day..